@xx334872: (english is not my first language) I always longed for love. I saw other people loving, bonding with each other and wondered why I couldnt be like them, like there was something deeply wrong with me. But now that it is happening, it feels so scary. I feel like a little kid wanting to go swim in a pool but the water is too cold so they're afraid of diving. I've always wanted this, but it's so scary. I dont want to be vulnerable. I dont want to get hurt. I dont want to get attached. I dont want any of this. But I want it at the same time. Not caring was so comfortable. But now I do care. I want them to be happy. All of this is just so weird. Im so scared #aspd #bpd #cptsd
Love in ASPD is only two things. Either Fear or Obsession. Fear is like you said, Obsession is "I want to have you, no matter the cost"
2026-03-05 16:13:59
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Jazmine :
I have aspd and it is genuinely so hard to fall in love or feel a connection with someone including my parents are friends. they can form one with me but I can't with them like I just went through a friendship breakup with my best friend of 5 years and didn't feel anything
2026-03-20 17:24:42
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Mespania66 :
Figured out I just liked the idea of being in love because it fed my ego and I actually couldn’t care less about it
2026-02-28 03:15:54
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Bot :
i dont understand love no matter how hard i try
2026-03-02 12:33:31
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Hope :
I'm not the one with aspd, but my boyfriend is. I see how hard it is for him, and how long it took him, but everyday I'm extremely proud of how far he came. It might not be the most conventional, but I wouldn't trade him for anything. I love every part of him, and I'm always so glad that he trusts me. There's difficulties, but trying is always a solution. I hope you can find happiness, and be able to love and be loved, without feeling so scared.
2026-03-01 13:50:10
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˚ʚ♡ɞ˚WolfSharky˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ :
I’ve only loved one person and this description is so accurate. I’ve been wanting love but then the moment I remember vulnerability is a thing I start to question if I want a second rodeo or not…
2026-02-28 07:19:51
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lost :
Can someone with very good experience with psychology or therapy talk to me cuz I been told I have major signs of ASPD but I dont want to go to a therapist since this means I have to reveal to my parents the possibility of me having this disorder.
2026-04-11 19:52:55
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wėlls :
does that even exist
2026-03-19 21:21:38
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horo :
You might be missing something that people who haven't had your past have, but it doesn't affect how worthy of love you are. Love doesn't need to fit a single mold, it doesn't need to be flowers and chocolate, it can be having somebody by your side who fundamentally understand you and out of every other person chooses you. You too deserve to be chosen.
2026-02-28 14:46:48
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🩻 :
It feels human to connect with someone on such an intimate level. It’s beautiful but also tragic, it’s a constant reminder that you can live that fantasy as much as you want but it will never become a reality.
2026-03-12 13:34:24
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Poltergeist :
its weird, all my life ive felt like ive such love and passion inside of me. yet when the moment arises where i can finally let it out, theres nothing there. actually, theres slight hate. but something else, a sense of preciousness to me, something that i dont wanna let go even though i feel like id do anything to let go.
2026-04-10 00:28:32
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冴 :
how can i love someone i truly don’t feel love to anyone
2026-03-26 03:38:25
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ash :
the only love I understand is the hunt
2026-03-08 12:59:46
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we mostly are obsessed not really in love
2026-03-19 22:29:06
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thereallifeprincessbelle :
Can’t repost just know I was here
2026-02-16 19:05:17
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•|Scantylycious|• :
The description is poetic❤️🩹
2026-02-11 23:23:03
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styx :
the description is so insanely word for word me I thought for a second I posted this
2026-03-02 00:34:53
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What you lookin at?🙄🫤 :
We are all INTJ in this video, thank god I finally see perfection
2026-03-14 00:58:31
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disturbedgirl :
scary
2026-03-01 00:56:00
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Feesrop :
It’s impossible
2026-05-31 05:18:14
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Just_iced_⦻ :
This video is beautifully poetic
2026-04-22 17:47:12
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𝒱𝒶𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓉𝒶𝓈 :
Hey, u write very well
2026-04-18 01:55:12
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🪓 :
From my point of view, u can only end up becoming obsessed, and even confusing that with "falling in love" or simply pretending to love someone to feel that feeling
2026-03-21 02:49:12
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ᯓ erik ⟢ eleven/lumi no.1 fan :
despite how hard it is for me to find, i love being able to love. i hope i manage to find the words or the time to tell him one day, because the idea of getting to learn someone’s wants and boundaries and being able to spur them into doing what they’ve dreamed is amazing. i don’t care about any of that ‘fine shyt’ or ‘cracking’ stuff that is common in people my age, hell the idea of intimacy wouldn’t be important unless they wanted it, the idea of being able to love someone so viscerally and wholly makes me as close to happy as i’ve ever imagined. i love him because they make me feel human without judgement. sorry for the long rant, i got really into my feelings about this :)
2026-03-19 22:22:28
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𝑹𝒐𝒂𝒏 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂 :
My fiancée has aspd, and I love him for that. He is the most caring and loving. I think love with aspd if definitely possible, if the person you love is right and compatible.
2026-05-10 12:24:36
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