fabian :
one time I had a dream where idrk what was happening before this but I had a crush on an imaginary guy who I think was based off several of my friends and we were in some situation where we were with a larger group of friends and we were joking around, and for some reason he was standing like almost right up against a wall and my face was really close to his and I like jokingly leaned forward and gave him a peck on the lips (it wasn't really "jokingly" for me, I liked him and I kinda flustered myself and him a little bit by doing that) and then he was like "that's not how you kiss someone, THIS is how you kiss someone" and leaned back in, cradled my face in his hands and actually kissed me, like at first it caught me by surprise because all the other friends we were hanging out with were watching us and I thought he was still kinda joking but after a second when I realized he wasn't joking at all, I let my eyes close and I like felt my body melting, like all the tension in my body just let go and I felt more relaxed than I ever have in my entire life, I don't remember us leaning against the wall but for some reason my brain is telling me that him facing away from the wall is an important detail so I think he did actually kinda fall back against the wall and pull me with him, and eventually we pulled away from each other and opened our eyes and he just looked at me and smiled and we kinda just stared into each other's eyes for a while (normally I dislike eye contact but in this dream I seem to remember making eye contact a lot more, like even before I kissed him I was making eye contact every time I talked to him), and then I woke up and I swear I could still feel him, like I still felt so completely relaxed, I felt warmth, I could still feel his kiss lingering on my lips, like I was just so unbelievably happy and content with everything for a brief moment, and that was the only time I've ever had a dream like that
2026-02-18 20:15:00