Meljohn :
i loved you, samantha. I really did—not loud or reckless, but in the quiet way of someone who chooses to stay when leaving would’ve been easier. Ever since we were in second year junior high, I already admired you—your smile, your way of seeing things, all the little parts that made you you. That admiration grew slowly into steady, unconditional love, carrying us all the way to where we are now, in senior high.I fought for us quietly and consistently, with patience I didn’t even know I had. I bent parts of myself just to make space for you, never seeing it as a loss. I gave you my all, believing that alone would be enough to keep us whole. I thought love meant enduring a little pain. But somewhere along the way, the spark faded for you. You couldn’t find that feeling anymore, so you chose to walk away—while my love stayed bright and steady, unchanged. All my effort didn’t turn into a miracle. Even doing everything right, wanting and choosing you over and over, still wasn’t enough to change the ending. That’s what I keep thinking about: you can love someone completely and still lose them. No grand betrayal—just the fire going out in you, while mine kept burning on. I replay everything not to fix it, but because I refuse to let what we had feel small. I keep reminiscing about our happy days, our laughter, and the warm memories we built together. From junior high admiration till i will grow old, every bit of it mattered to me. It wasn’t just another story that ended; it lived in me and shaped the way I speak, wait, and love now. I’m not yours anymore, and I don’t stand by your side. But I still love you—softly, quietly, from a distance. No grand gestures, no demands, no chasing. I carry this love gently, missing you in quiet moments and little reminders of us. Sometimes I still yearn, but I keep it safe and private. I don’t blame you or myself; I showed up, stayed honest, and loved you fully. If it wasn’t enough, maybe it was never about what i lacked—it was just about where our hearts were at different times, something no fight could fix. I still believe this sharp pain will soften with time, turning into something light I can carry easily.
2026-04-16 10:21:56