@mrtnphilippines: Pahina x Kalapastangan | #foryou #foryoupage #fyp

Chacha :

unknown :

miss mo?

jax :

uhm...

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kalapastangan ang balikan ang pahina na hindi na dapat naisulat at basahin ang katapusan na nag iiwan ng tanong na "minahal kaba talaga?"

emmaaaaaannnn💫 :

Backburner, di pinursue, second option, di pinili, laging pangalawa, standby lang, backup plan, never priority, almost pero hindi, reserve lang, last pick, pang-lipas oras, fallback palagi, hindi inuna, hindi sineryoso, hindi pinansin, laging nasa gilid lang, parang choice lang kapag wala nang iba, laging panghuli sa listahan, hindi kailanman una sa isip mo, sandalan lang kapag kailangan mo ng kausap, pansamantalang kasama kapag masaya ka, kapag wala kang ibang mapagkukunan, ako yung boses mo kapag hindi malinaw ang isip mo, ako yung kahinaan mo na tinitingnan mo lang kapag hindi ka masaya sa ibang tao, parang comfort zone na hindi mo alam kung seryoso ka o hindi, laging pangalawa sa desisyon, pang-reserve lang, kung kelan convenient sa’yo, kung kailan free ang oras mo, ako yung ‘almost’ pero hindi naging ‘ikaw’, ako yung naiisip mo kapag hindi nag-work yung una mong pinili, ako yung extra na iniwan mo sa huli, ako yung hindi napag-isipan, hindi tinutukan, hindi inuna, hindi minindset, hindi pinapahalagahan, parang placeholder lang sa buhay mo, parang panandalian, hindi tunay na mahalaga, pero nandyan lang palagi, handa lang umako kapag wala nang iba, parang echo sa isip mo na hindi mo kayang itigil, parang damdaming iniwan mo sa gilid, laging standby, laging nakahanda, laging nasa likod ng priority mo, hindi pinipili, hindi pinag-iisipan, hindi pinapansin, parang laging pangalawa, pang-reserve, pang-ubos lang ng oras, never truly chosen, almost pero hindi, di kailanman una, di seryoso, di tunay, laging nasa huli, di kailanman sa unahan, pang-lipas oras, pang-replace, pang-comfort, pang-backup, pang-extra, pang-boredom, pang-second thought, pang-fill in, pang-temporary, pang-huli, pang-extras, pang-standby, pang-always waiting.

serswei :

3 days before my birthday and I was thinking about confessing to him, can I really? when I already knew that he liked someone else. I see him smile wide, laugh so hard and look at her so admiringly that it pains me so much that I tried to uncrush him but I can't. We are playing duo last week and it was so confusing, he gave every mixed signals that anyone could've ever imagine, he says I'm the most smartest in the room and he even called me darling, he wants me to go with him in the same school college and he keeps entertaining me when we're playing but why did I think it was mixed signals? He never messaged me once, everytime I asks about him he always brushed it off with a small and nonchalant answer and when he called me darling? those things he said complimenting me? he was drunk that time, everytime we play he's not sober (and I very much wish he was). March 27 is where we part ways towards our future, I want to be in a same school as him but I think I don't have anymore reasons to follow him. He was smartest of the smarts, almost all of his grades were 95 up and me? I still had line of 7 that I'm still embarrassed. I remember falling in crush to him when we we're G11, 1st sem and it's a 2-3 weeks before 2nd quarter and the girl? she was also smarter than me and much more responsible. Should I confess or not? and if I do should confess, should it be on my birthday when I'll get myself wasted? or on our graduation day? I'm so dumb when it comes to this.

James :

Kalapastangan punitin ang mga pahina na naglalaman ng masasaya nating alaala magkasama

John Michael :

SetbBa :

i loved you, i really did. not in the loud, reckless way, but in the way a woman stays when it would’ve been easier to leave. i fought for us quietly, consistently, with patience i didn’t even know i had. i bent parts of myself just to make space for you, and i never once thought of it as a loss back then. i thought love was supposed to hurt a little, supposed to ask you to endure but loving you didn’t save us. effort didn’t turn into a miracle. all that wanting, all that choosing, still wasn’t enough to change the ending. and that’s the part i keep sitting with, the idea that you can do everything right and still lose someone. no grand betrayal. just two people wanting different things at different depths i replay everything in my head, not because i think i can fix it, but because part of me refuses to let it be small. what we had mattered to me. you mattered to me. i hate how easy it looks from the outside, like it was just another story that ended. it wasn’t. it lived in me. it shaped the way i speak, the way i wait, the way i love now i don’t blame myself the way i used to. i showed up. i stayed honest. i loved you in the only way i knew how, fully, even when it scared me. if that wasn’t enough, then maybe it was never about my lack, but about timing, about alignment, about things no amount of fighting could fix i’ll miss you without chasing you. i’ll remember you without reopening wounds. and one day, the yearning will soften into something quieter, not gone, just gentler. until then, i’ll let myself feel it. because loving you was real, and losing you doesn’t erase that.

pish :

Hi a*** kumusta kna na..Ang tagal na. Limang taon na ang lumipas, a***. I thought i moved on, pero nung nakausap uli kita, bumalik yung naramdaman ko sa ’yo. Was i just distracted? impossible naman na na-distract ako for 5 years, pero bakit ganito pa rin yung nararamdaman ko towards you? Dati, hindi kita masyadong naiisip, that’s why i thought na i moved on from you na. Naiisip pa rin kita, oo. Pero parang itinutulak ko na lang ikaw papalayo sa isipan ko instinctively. Like, hindi ko namamalayan na every time na naiisip kita, or nami-miss—bigla akong naghahanap ng mga bagay-bagay na makakapag distract sa ’kin until na makalimutan uli kita. Was that my way of trying to forget you, but can’t—because you’re in the back of my mind? Grabe yung impact mo sa ’kin, a***. Kahit isang linggo lang tayong nag tagal, limang taon akong nag antay sa ’yo, at hindi pa nakaka-usad sa ’yo. Ganon kita ka-mahal. At first, i thought na i really moved on from you because i kept remembering you but then forgetting you and the cycle repeats, because it was normal naman, ‘di ba? pero bakit gan’to haha. I miss you. Hindi ko na-realize na i have been yearning for you for 5 years now. Grabe, time really passes pero wala pa rin talaga akong balak umusad sa ’yo, bry. Masakit para sa akin, pero hindi ako nagrereklamo. I won’t ever complain na hindi pa ako nakaka-usad sa ’yo, because it’s the last bonding i have with you—and i will cherish it and commit the pain—the feeling to memory. The day we started talking again after a few years, i was happy, and nervous at the same time. Because the person i was talking to at that time—was YOU. I was happy, because i got to talk to you again. Lalo na nung we played MLBB together, super saya ko non. It made me remember those memories we made a few years ago. Ayun pala yung sinasabi nila na bittersweet feeling, no? haha. I was also nervous, because we haven’t talked for years and i was scared of rejection, pero you didn’t even reject me at all :) At first, nung nag-usap tayo ulit non, nasaktan ako kasi you forgot about me while i think about you multiple times—every single month. Hindi kumpleto ang buwan—lalo na ang taon nang hindi kita iniisip, a***.

️Enn. :

i loved you, chan. i really did. not in the loud, reckless way, but in the way a woman stays when it would’ve been easier to leave. i fought for us quietly, consistently, with patience i didn’t even know i had. i bent parts of myself just to make space for you, and i never once thought of it as a loss back then. i thought love was supposed to hurt a little, supposed to ask you to endure but loving you didn’t save us. effort didn’t turn into a miracle. all that wanting, all that choosing, still wasn’t enough to change the ending. and that’s the part i keep sitting with, the idea that you can do everything right and still lose someone. no grand betrayal. just two people wanting different things at different depths i replay everything in my head, not because i think i can fix it, but because part of me refuses to let it be small. what we had mattered to me. you mattered to me. i hate how easy it looks from the outside, like it was just another story that ended. it wasn’t. it lived in me. it shaped the way i speak, the way i wait, the way i love now i don’t blame myself the way i used to. i showed up. i stayed honest. i loved you in the only way i knew how, fully, even when it scared me. if that wasn’t enough, then maybe it was never about my lack, but about timing, about alignment, about things no amount of fighting could fix i’ll miss you without chasing you. i’ll remember you without reopening wounds. and one day, the yearning will soften into something quieter, not gone, just gentler. until then, i’ll let myself feel it. because loving you was real, and losing you doesn’t erase that.

saecakes :

★Kumøtaki★ :

relapse x collapse💔

Betlordd :

⃟ :

Umagang umaga nagre relapse agad😭

Paul Isn't Perfect. :

sarap sa tenga, sakit sa puso

tin;) :

miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na kita heeseung😭

Pareng nin🗽⃢⃢🗿 :

🐻 :

Third 🥉

SIGMA Albert :

FIRST

Bi. :

the bridge of pahina song will always kill me.

Zero :

timing pag labas ng mga kantang to sa FYP ko nananadya ata kayo eh 😢😥😓

Elaine :

ikaw na nga lang yung nag iisang kakampi ko nagbago kapa, dati hindi mo kayang hindi ako kausapin ng isang araw pero ngayon nakakaya mo ng hindi ako kausapin ng ilang linggo, namimiss ko na yung dating ikaw, yung dating tayo, yung mga good morning/night mo, yung late night talks natin, yung mga random updates mo, yung bonding natin, hindi ko alam kung paano tayo umabot sa gantong sitwasyon lagi naman tayong masaya e, hindi ko alam kung paano mo nagagawa yung bagay na hindi ko ine-expect na magagawa mo sakin, pero kahit ganon hindi parin kita kino-comfront kasi baka kung saan pa mapunta yung usapan, hinahayaan nalang kita na gawin yung bagay na 'yon. andami ko ng gustong sabihin sayo pero wala akong lakas na loob para sabihin na nasasaktan mo na ako. hindi ko ina-akalang magagawa mo sakin 'yon. i miss the old you.