ITSYOURGURLMAYAFEM :
Like tell me why( I don’t expect no one to see this or care so I am gonna write it here okay) I was just listening to music then I start crying and remembering all of our memories and conversations together then I remembered that there is nothing for me to do and I have to live with it. But holy moly how much I miss us, how much I wish it was us, how much I wish we were still together, and how much I wish I could relive it at least cuz it was an amazing time that we spent together. I loved it and will forever cherish it because it was beautiful what we had but I had to mess it up. Well that’s what i am being told by their friends, but my friends say it was her fault but reality it was both of ours but mostly mines, i let my overthinking get in the way and I tried to tell her and the only thing she did was tell me it’s not true but deep down it was kinda true what I was thinking cuz I knew she never really liked no one did, none of my relationships did. And the reason for it was my anxiety,overthinking, and my looks cuz yes I am copped, yes I am an over-thinker cuz that’s what I do half of the time, and yes my anxiety is bad and yet won’t ask for real help cuz I can’t and probably won’t be able to express it cuz no one absolutely no one actually knows why. But because of that I lost the most important and valuable thing to me she was my everything I tired my best for her I really did and she was my first girl relationship and dang she was the best. But now all I do is cry and wish I could back. But instead of crying I am just sad all the time and just sit there re thinking everything trying to figure out what actually did I do, what actually did I say wrong for her to hate me, and what actually did I do to deserve this. Cuz all I do is forgive and forgive that’s all I do at this point. Like please let me live in peace, let me be happy, let me live a normal life for once or at least for one day or maybe even a week.
2026-04-12 06:13:28