brrrrrrrritneyyyyyuy :
I tried. I made the biggest mistake of confessing, yet he told me that he didn't want to change anything between us. Somehow that's more confusing. After my confession I ignored him, stopped messaging him first for a few months, and it was nice. I felt like I can finally breathe. However, because of that (not ending the friendship) we still talked casually. I hate it. I hate that every time we talk, it still gives me that feeling. I thought I already moved on. I even got a new crush, but when the time came that we got close again, I think he thought I've moved on from him. THE THING IS, I DID NOT. I was still hoping, I am still hoping. His actions state otherwise. WHY'D HE HAVE TO DO THOSE THINGS, I HATE IT. I don't hate him. I hate the feeling that I can't shake him away no matter how hard I try. I really don't want to lose him, he's the best. However, I also don't know how I can move forward in my life, without having to completely remove him from it. AND HERE'S THE THING. HIS FAMILY. They know me, and lately, we've gotten close. I don't want to break their hearts naman, lalo na at ini-invite nila ako sa family gatherings nila. SO PLEASE TELL ME HOW CAN I ESCAPE THIS. Awang-awa na'ko sa sarili ko. At the same time, I want to keep him in my life. IDK WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.
2026-05-20 11:04:42