xiaolongbye :
after all, I still want to be a psychologist—not because I have the potential, but because I don’t want to hurt myself again by seeing people go through the things I never thought would happen to me.
I know the pain. I didn’t know what to do. I knew how to endure everything, but enduring only led me to let people take advantage of my vulnerability without even realizing it.
I had no one. I know how it feels—and that is something I would never let anyone else experience.
I want to be the person I once wished I had. I want people to feel what I’ve always wanted to feel—not in a way that hurts, breaks, or takes advantage of me, but in a gentle, mutual, capable, and genuine way.
and I believe this is the only way I can help myself—by helping others feel okay, seen, validated, heard, and loved. by giving them the kind of love and genuine care I’ve been craving ever since I became like this.
and that is something not everyone will understand. lol.
2026-03-28 17:03:13