kyang :
Dearest Chi,
It’s been almost a year since we broke up, but there are still things that sit heavy in my chest no matter how much I try to move forward. I hate you for lying—not just to me, but to your own feelings. I hate how you let me carry all the weight of us while you were already letting go, how you left me to deal with everything until my heart finally gave out. Sometimes I catch myself wondering if I was really that easy to leave, that easy to replace. Because how do you tell me you need to focus on your acads, that you don’t want any distractions, only for me to find out later that you’re already interested in someone else? Ang sakit lang isipin na habang ako, I was trying to understand you, ikaw pala unti-unti ka nang umaalis—emotionally gone before everything even ended.
What hurts even more is how fast everything seemed for you. Parang ang dali mong naka-move on, ang dali mong maging masaya ulit, ang dali mong magmahal ng iba as if nothing between us ever mattered that deeply. And yes, I know I don’t really have the right to complain anymore because I’ve found someone too, but that doesn’t erase the truth of what you did. You told me you had to choose your priorities over me, over us, but now I see you giving someone else the kind of love you said you couldn’t give me. And I can’t help but question everything—if you were really being honest back then, or if I was just someone you had to let go of because you were already choosing someone else. Because at the end of it all, it didn’t feel like you chose yourself… it felt like you just didn’t choose me.
2026-04-12 13:30:36