14 dec :
I still love... Until now, that feeling has never truly gone away, even after everything that happened, after yesterday's departure, after everything that has changed, this feeling remains, still intact, still deep, I thought time would help me forget, I thought being busy would make me stop thinking about you, I thought all of this was just a phase that would eventually disappear on its own, but in fact, it's not, you still live here, in my heart, in the corner that I can't touch the most, and no matter how hard I try to forget, it always manages to reappear. Whether through dreams, or through small memories, everything is still clearly recorded. after you left, my life changed, not only because I lost someone, but because I lost a part of myself.. you are not just someone who was present, you are someone who was once a part of everything, once the reason I wake up in the morning with enthusiasm, the reason I smile for no reason, the reason I feel enough, even though the world is heavy and now, after you left, I became a different person I learned to pretend to be happy, I learned to pretend to be strong, I learned to hide the pain behind laughter, because I know, not everyone cares, and not everyone understands, people only see me from the outside, they think I can do it, I can accept everything, but inside my heart I am still a mess, I still often think about us, about the little things we used to do together, about midnight chats, about small plans that we never had time to make happen, about your laughter, and the look in your eyes that always managed to make me calm, all of that is still there, still warm and sometimes, too painful to remember, but also too precious to forget. it's funny when I reread our chats. How easy it is for me to smile with a few words you type. And how easy it is for me to laugh with your strange jokes. After getting to know you, I realized that happiness is an easy thing.
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