@mymypadilla4004: Watching this video back made me realize I have a very hard time expressing myself when it comes to negative thoughts. I finally found the happy and calm version of myself and I guess I got comfortable there. I think I also got comfortable with suppressing things because I don’t want to be a burden on the small amount of people I do still have in my life. In the past 3 years my family has buried 4 family members and I am exhausted. If I am not prepared to lose my stepdad, so I can only imagine how my mommy is feeling. She puts on a brave face but I can feel her pain through every laugh. I’m literally at my breaking point and I know I am going to have to hold her up when the time comes. I’m really sorry that I am posting such a low energy video but I’ve been carrying this quietly and I’m scared of how much of me it will eat away at. I don’t recognize myself anymore and that really scares me. #imnotokay #cancersucks #depressed #ihateithere #lost

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Tuesday 17 March 2026 13:00:00 GMT