should I have to tell the one person who should already know what I want from him and be the man that steps up and say's come in out.of the rain baby I got you.we got this im on my way to get you.be ready and thrre not be a no other anser I don't even have to say yes I just quietly meet where he say or simple im coming im in such and such I dont want to hear you shit ill be thrre at 12 room not one min late or early your ass better be ready baby im that reassuring g comfort of a dad and a brother but in the protection of a man I felt breath and fedl satisfaction as do I feel like a nervous wreck guarded insecure because ibwas left having to live with the idea he would have never gave me what I wanted with out asking and I did and it went to shit. and so there for I wont ask agsin and I cant tell you what I want from you because not only do you know you should want it too. so if were not worth the fight just loving from a far convincing myself and him that this never happend makes it worse.
2026-03-18 09:33:30
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Daryn Titus :
You know what scares me for telling the man that means meant more to me than life its self. I was head over heels love that felt like life finally made sense I was happy even in the sadness of not being in their life. So on all that love and romance this man who i adored i thaught could tell when so much as sensed a slight change in my life let alone having to have this man hang tight and go fix somthing that someone else fucked up. And not being able to explain to the man with my heart that exactly what's going on and what needs to be done. And thinking he would sense this time coming back that i dont very often get a wide open window free for my choosing free to make my own choices no baggage no one and nothing pressing you seen glory when I contacted you here while back you didnt see that for a moment how my life felt when I was completely myself. And im certainly sorry. Im sorry im tangled in somthing im trying to shut the door on permently and have time and history replay the hell that once came of my life brought into countless things things that would keep a grown man at his mercy and write his maker everything and anyone at arms length. I chose this man. I wanted him to know how much ILoved him the depths of it what I had to offer or offer not everyone has acess to and even though he seen me at my worst same light showed my greatness and so now im sadly writing this with a pain in my heart and feeling like a dull knife because I loose me shit knowing that the thaught of him knowing the one thing I want more than anything in the world that for normal poeple its so silly very inexpensive some time to our selves at first meeting when we first do see eachother but praying our heats still have the same beat the same love the same echo the same light the same chaios and the same storms. in the midst of all of that we no matter what we choose eachother when the odds are stacked against us just not when they are in our favor. and that he understands write now because someone poeple dont know were together or whats been going on in my world my friends have came back and I. stuck with this meer thaught of him being just another distraction. because why should I