🦭 :
To my Dearest Adiii, I know for a fact na there's a very very low chance na u will read this pero bahala na I dont need u to read it, i just need u to feel it. As a person who has anxious attachment, I have so much love for you it's overwhelming me most of the time. It's in everything i do, everything i think about, everything that reminds me of you. I dont think I ever felt this much for someone before, and it scares me a lot how deeply i care abt u. When we're talking i feel okay, i feel happy like everything is lighter. But when things get quiet between us I tend to overthink knowing you have an avoidant attachment style. I get scared, I mean really really scared gyudt that I might lose u again and I dont want that at all. I still remember how it felt when we werent talking before and it left a space in me that nothing and no one could ever fill. I dont ever want to feel that kind of emptiness again. Now that we're here again, I just keep wanting more of you in my life, not in a rushed way but in a "please stay forever" kinda way. I just want to grow with you and do the stuff we planned like traveling the world together just us two, fix things with you, and just keep choosing you everyday. I dont want smth temporary with you, I want it real. I want us. I love you whole heartedly it feels like it's too much that i cant handle and I dont ever want to stop feeling like this. I dont want to lose you, not again, not ever. I just want youuu for a long time in the most genuine way I can give. Even if I dont say it enough, i notice everything abt u. The small things that I overanalyze (hays naa gyudt koy smth ba) the way u talk, the way u come back after the silence, the way nga u still manage to make my heart feel calm and safe but somewhat scared(its not your fault, its just the way I am) at the same time. I dont take it for granted anymore. I just want u to know that im trying my very best to be a better person for you and for us, even un my own quiet ways. I dont need everything to be perfect between us, i just need you here with me, choosing me and being better for me too. Because at the end of everything, no matter how scared I get, it will always still-
2026-04-11 15:53:29