𝕬𝖓𝖎𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖆 :
I don’t really know where to start, but I’ve been carrying these words for a long time now, and maybe it’s finally time to let them out even if it’s already too late for us.
You were never just someone ordinary to me. From the very beginning, there was something about you that felt different. I didn’t even notice when admiration slowly turned into something deeper. One day, I just realized that you had already become my favorite person the one I looked for in every room, the one I wanted to talk to about everything, even the smallest and most meaningless things.
I think what hurts the most is that, while I was building these quiet feelings for you, you were simply being yourself–kind, genuine, and unaware of the storm you were creating in my heart. You never promised me anything, and yet I found myself hoping for everything. I created moments in my mind where maybe, just maybe, you felt the same way too. But now I understand… those were just my own “panaginip.”
There were so many times I wanted to tell you the truth. So many nights I practiced what I would say, how I would say it, and what your reaction might be. But fear always won. Fear of losing you, fear of making things awkward, fear of hearing the one answer I wasn’t ready for. So I stayed silent. I chose to keep you close in a way that was slowly breaking me.
And then came the moment I realized that I was never going to be the one you choose. That realization didn’t come loudly. It came quietly, like a slow ache that never really leaves. I smiled, I acted normal, but deep inside, I was learning how to let go of something I never even had.
I want you to know that everything I felt for you was real. Every smile you gave me meant something. Every conversation stayed with me longer than it probably should have. You made me happy in ways you’ll never fully understand, and at the same time, you taught me one of the hardest lessons I’ve ever had to learn. That love doesn’t always come back the way you give it.But please don’t feel guilty. You didn’t do anything wrong. Loving you was my choice, even if it was painful. If anything, I’m grateful. Because for a while, you were my favorite.
2026-04-29 07:23:50