vɪɴɴᴅɴᴅシ︎ :
i hope he never gets to read this, but raym. i still miss u so much. even now, i’m still not okay. i’m still not over u, my lovelove. so much has changed, so much has happened, but my feelings for u feel like they stayed the same. u’re still the greatest gift i’ve ever received from God, and i’ll always be thankful that even for a while, i got to call u mine. i still think abt u at the most random times. the smallest things remind me of u, songs, places, even little jokes. sometimes it makes me smile, but most of the time it still hurts. i keep wondering if u ever think abt me the way i think abt u, or if i’m the only one still stuck here. i rlly thought we were gonna make it. i thought no matter what we went through, we’d find our way back to each other, but this time better. more mature, more understanding, more ready. i still think abt that version of us, the one where we fixed everything, the one where we chose each other despite all the pain. it’s been 10 months since we broke up, and that’s a long time, but somehow it still feels like yesterday. i guess some people just leave a mark that time can’t erase, and for me that’s u. no matter how much i try to move forward, there’s still a part of me that goes back to u. i know we both made mistakes. we said things we didn’t mean, we hurt each other in ways we never should have. but now when i look back, all i can think abt is how much i loved u, how real everything felt, how happy u made me even with the smallest things. it hurts thinking that u’re doing fine without me. that u’re okay, maybe even happy, and i’m not part of ur life anymore. i’m happy for u, i rlly am, but at the same time it hurts knowing that i’m still here, holding onto memories of something that’s already gone. but even then, i can’t help it. i’m still hoping, even just a little. hoping that maybe one day u’ll come back, that maybe we’ll get another chance to do things right, to fix what we broke, to finally keep the promises we once made to each other. i rlly rlly loved u, raym, and a part of me still does. idk if that will ever change, but for now it’s still u.
2026-03-28 06:33:05