xnrdm :
Maybe I was trying too hard
trying to make it work
trying to keep things together trying to be what you needed j give more more time more effort more understanding, I told myself that if I tried hard enough things would finally feel right, but they didn't, something always felt off. Like I was the only one holding everything in place, the only one making sure it didn't fall apart. and slowly I started losing myself in it, changing small things, ignoring what it felt, accepting less than I should, just to keep you, but maybe that was the problem, maybe it was never supposed to feel that hard, maybe I wasn't mean to force something that didn't come naturally, because the right things don't need that much effort, they don't make you question yourself everystep of he way, so maybe I wasn't wrong, maybe I just tried too hard for something that was never meant to stay.
2026-05-18 04:03:19