🌊 :
hi baby, it’s been a while when we stopped talking, and honestly, ang daming beses na gusto kitang i-message ulit pero lagi akong napipigilan. hindi dahil wala na akong nararamdaman, kundi dahil hindi ko alam kung may lugar pa ba ako sa buhay mo ngayon. time passed so fast, pero yung memories natin parang kahapon lang nangyari. minsan napapaisip ako, what if hindi tayo tumigil? what if inayos natin instead of letting everything fall apart?
alam mo ba, ang daming nagbago sa akin since then. i tried to move forward, i tried to act like everything is okay, pero deep inside, there’s still this part of me na ikaw pa rin. ang hirap i-explain, kasi kahit anong gawin ko, bumabalik pa rin ako sa thought na “ikaw sana.” maybe it’s because you were not just someone to me, you were my comfort, my peace, and my chaos all at the same time.
naiisip ko rin kung naaalala mo pa ba ako the way i remember you. do you still think about me sometimes? or am i just someone from your past na nakalimutan mo na? i don’t know, and maybe that’s what scares me the most. kasi ako, hindi pa kita nakakalimutan. hindi pa rin nawawala yung “what if” sa isip ko.
i’m not saying this para manggulo or to bring back something na wala na. i just want to be honest with what i feel, kahit late na. siguro this is my way of letting things out, kasi ang dami kong “sana” at “baka” na hindi ko nasabi before. if ever dumating yung time na mag-usap tayo ulit, i just hope na hindi na tayo strangers sa isa’t isa.
pero if hindi na talaga, i’ll try to understand. maybe some people are meant to stay as memories, not forever. masakit, oo, pero ganon siguro talaga ang buhay. still, i just want you to know na you were once my everything, and that will always mean something to me.
i hope you’re happy now, genuinely. and if ever our paths cross again, maybe—just maybe—we can start again, kahit as something simple.
2026-04-04 12:33:34