Backburner :
ganda ng music, Naiintindihan naman kita na avoidant ka at kailangan mo lagi ng space kapag bumibigat ang lahat pero minsan pwede bang sumandal ka naman sa'kin? Hindi 'yung literal na sandal, pero sana 'wag mo ako tignan na hindi ko kaya ang dinadala mo kasi we promised na ih-heal natin 'yung sarili natin for each other 'di ba? Aayusin mo 'yung pagiging Avoidant mo and I'll fix my Anxious Attachment para sa atin. Pero now look at us, slowly losing each other's warmth. At ngayon i slowly getting used to the distance you are always giving to me. Hindi naman ako gan'to dati eh, i told you i won't leave no matter what kaya hindi ako umaalis, i thought loving you more would make you see me as different from your past pero no. Kahit kailan hindi mo ako tinignan na ibang iba sa kanila, no matter how much effort i put into our relationship, no matter how tight i hold you para hindi ka mabitawan. Hindi pa rin enough 'yun, you're still seeing me as a man na someday will leave you. And i hope i did, i hope matutunan ko pa'no ka hindi mahalin pero hindi ko kaya eh. A thought of you na wala sa buhay ko parang hindi ko kaya. I did everything for you, for us, thinking if i give everything i have to you, it'll heal your avoidant attachment. Akala ko if i do my best you'll eventually learn na maging open sa'kin, akala ko if i hug you even at my worst you'll realize that I'm not the temporary one, pero hindi eh. You just made me realize kung bakit hanggang ngayon mag-isa ka and it was even funnier because i know to myself na because of that kaya hindi kita mas lalong kayang iwan. Mahal na mahal kita, pero sana gano'n din pagtingin mo sakin kahit 4weeks na tayong hindi nag uusap.
2026-04-05 04:47:34