@healingwithzach: Is this safe ? Or familiar? #healing

jamesmccarthy1378 :

Chaos I had a that pull back on Friday afternoon, I’ve been off it since Christmas and went for a drink with my father, just two but the chaos to get on it came back. I found a number on my phone and rang it in, luckily I was still an hour away from it and I suppressed them temptations. Deleted the number but how I was feeling was shit thinking about it but I got control and came back around while playing it forward aswell. Where I am today and where I’m going is a much better person then where I was. I found escape in substance abuse but I’m finding peace now. So proud of where I am but I definitely have to avoid alcohol cause even that first sip I got intrusive thought about it until I kept growing and eventually got overwhelming but being able to ground that was definitely a skill I’ve grown on