manz’۶ৎ :
ive always loved you, ever sinve we started talking you’ve never left my mind. everytime i’d ruin my sleep schedule for you and you wouldn’t even be aware of it and found me stupid for wanting to sleep this « early ». when for u in the us it was early, it was actually 6 am for me in france as id pull all nighters just to play silly games with you. and i loved those moments, they were the most precious ive ever experienced. i loved those moments, i love you, i loved everytime you showed consideration toward me and when you’d show me off to other players, i loved it when we had so much in common, i loved it when our minds would interlink, i loved when we’d talk for hours non stop, just sharing silly thoughts memes and references cuz we were bored. the mere idea of you brought me joy and a smile on the lips, it still does but this aching pain in the stomach comes with it now. i tried moving on by dating another boy, but none of what he did or couldve done wouldve managed to make me feel as much as you did, meanwhile you did without even trying to. everytime you’d play piano and asked me to join just so how i could praise you on your piano skills. ill never forget just how much you loved me at the beginning, i thought we’d grow a friendship, a relationship, a couple evn.. but life got between us, you took take break from socials, and ever since that.. it’s never been the same. i miss you monika, i miss you so bad, i miss just how fast you’d type on ur keyboard, the weird memes you’d send me that would sometimes leave me confused…. i loved you so much monika, so much i’d accept your comeback anytime, so much i cried all those times you left me unsure and uncertain about what you thought about me. i loved you, monika, and you’ll always be the one i’ll choose. i love you, yours sincerely, monika. no one managed to take ahold of my heart like you did.. love, nat
2026-04-10 21:21:57