rys :
I’ve always loved this song, even though I didn’t really relate to it before, it was just something chill I’d play in the background, but lately it’s been hitting different, especially since she moved to Australia a few months ago, things just haven’t been the same, we used to do the simplest stuff like late night walks or randomly deciding we wanted sushi at 2am and actually going for it, and now it’s just gone, I catch myself thinking about the small things more than anything, like how much she liked the color pink or how I started noticing it everywhere because of her, or how we used to mess around by bumping our shoes together like it was our own little thing, even something like her glasses getting foggy and me wiping them for her, or me always tying her shoes because she didn’t know how to, I didn’t think much of any of that before but now I realize I actually liked doing those things, it felt normal, I also remember always telling her her eyes were beautiful, not even in a cheesy way, it just felt true every time I said it, and then there was that one random reel I sent her about being sad because nobody said happy birthday even though it wasn’t actually my birthday, and I told her happy birthday as a joke and she told me happy birthday too, and somehow we took it seriously and said it felt like a sign that our feelings were still true, and after that it just became our thing, we’d randomly tell each other happy birthday like it meant something more than it should, and now we barely talk, there’s no time difference or anything, just distance, and it’s weird because nothing big even happened, it just slowly became like this, and sometimes it feels like I’m the only one still thinking about it, then that line comes in, is it true that you can feel so alone these days, and yeah, I didn’t get it before but I kinda do now, it doesn’t even feel dramatic, just real, like things changed and I’m still getting used to it, and now every time I hear this song it just reminds me of her and how things used to be. I just miss her so much, I miss us.
2026-04-14 05:12:16