jurjurj :
last year she booked a plane ticket for me to to study in the phillipenes, i dont know whether i agreed or not to this, i stress so much in the phillipenes i always worry. i always feel unmotivated because of the school there, i barely know the language but yet ive tried my hardest to go to school there for the past 3 years, i want to stay here in canads but my parents dont want to lose money. the cancelation fee is 100-500 dollars, my moms offering to give me 2k dollars when i come back, but she doesnt want to spend 100-500 for the fee, i understand the money any everything but, no amount of money will make me go back to living in stress and anxiety, i dont talk to anyone about my deep feelings or my emotions or what im going through, i would cry every night because i would be too stressed about anything or to anxious to go to school, the night before id be in deep depression but the day next at school id just show happiness because i dont want my burden to follow upon anyone, the last time i opened up, noone understood, i understand how my feelings or emotions or how i feel may not be as much as you guys or relate to you guys but, this is my life experience, not yours, ive realized over the summer here that ive wanted to dtay here, because even if i only had 1 friend to talk to here, ive made the best of it, ive lost weight, sometthing i couldnt do in the phillipenes with stress, ive felt more motivated, again something i couldnt do due to stress and work, the only downs of this zummer i had was thinking of the fact the i might have to go back to the phillipenes and go back to my old ways, i understand how my parents feel but i only want to to understand me just this once but its so hard to open up to anyone
2026-06-04 03:07:30