ciina🐾 :
i was like this for a while and well i had the same question, i was always searching for a meaning in life so it was a constant chase to try and find that meaning, nothing really came close to a good answer for me, until i just stopped, i stopped looking, i stoped noticing what other people were doing and thinking how it would affect me or why they thought of me or what they didn’t think, what people saw when they saw me, why was i doing what i was doing, for what purpose? i just stopped, and instead of looking i started just living in the moment, i started doing not for what i wanted people to think of me or what i thought people wanted to see of me, i was just simply doing, after a while i felt happy and i started enjoying myself again, it took a while to break out of the cycle and im not gonna lie, it took YEARS of therapy and meds and every trick in the book, i tried everything, but sometimes not every book is made for you to read, and well i stared going to the movies by myself because no one really wanted to go anyway (that used to make me sad and not want to go because what is the point if it was by myself) and it was really nice, the point wasnt anything but i wanted to go and see the movie so i did, i want to wear this outfit so i did, i wanted to post this so i did, sure i lost a lot of people and it took a lot of tries to break out of the cycle of overthinking and wanting to know what other people thought of me, how i could be what other people wanted, and honestly sometimes i still fall into that cycle but i realize that it’s just so tiring, and when i do realize what i was doing i tried and tried to go back to the other (the better for me) mentality
2026-04-26 20:51:36