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Can anyone help me to figure out if it’s just me being a bitch who’s only generous with herself or it’s actually more complicated? i am a 18yo neurodivergent woman who’s always had male friends more than female friends for my entire life but i’ve always wished to have a female bestie which never happened without being talked shit about, even all the female friends that i genuinely felt connected to were all online friends, well most of my male friends that i had in middle school have told me they really feel like i am a guy (i even had two block haircut, always wore a mask and baggy outfits at the moment) and got along with me, i think it’s not just only about masking as a neurodivergent but also that my personality traits are like tomboyish? Or it’s just related to my disorders idk 😭😭 for example i am blunt (altho i regret after saying a word), energetic, adventurous, rough and uh i speak like a man in my native language too (a lot of people from my country on the internet think i am a man) and now i have a bf but he’s like… neurotypical, straight asf, also pretty insensitive yk? He never talks to women, he has no female friends irl (i mean he has some online friends that he met on a dating app) his class doesn’t have women either so i know when he starts talking to a woman or hangs out with one it is uh not common right? And i get like not upset with him but maybe nervous about the fact that something uncommon that i can’t control is happening and end up overthinking he might leave me, but when i tell him that i feel really nervous and jealous of the female friends that he talks to bc i needed reassurance, he says “why can’t i talk to my friends? You have many guy friends too, even more than the female friends that i have” and… idk bruh like i’ve been raised around boys and he understands that i feel more comfortable with guys, i hang out with HIS friends as well like im in the fg actually… but i know he doesn’t usually talk to girls and he’s introverted too while i am 100% extroverted so i genuinely don’t know if it’s something i should stfu bc i have no right to complain since i have many guy friends or i at least have a right to ask him for reassurance
2026-05-06 06:51:48