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i don’t know where to start, but the only conclusion i can come up with is this: “god is so good.” these past few days, weeks, and even months, i walked away from god. i questioned him, doubted him, and asked him, “lord, why?” “are you really there?” “why won’t you help me?” i reached a point where my mental health was at its lowest, and i felt like i had no one to turn to. i even told myself that i would stop coming to him because i felt unheard and abandoned. but when everything became too heavy and i felt like i couldn’t carry the pain anymore, i realized i couldn’t do it alone. i prayed again and said, “lord, i can’t do this by myself anymore. please help me. forgive me for my sins. please, lord, help me.” from that moment, i slowly started seeing progress. not because everything disappeared overnight, but because healing began little by little. the pain didn’t instantly go away, but it became easier to breathe, easier to get through the day, and easier to keep going. i cried less, i found strength in places i thought were empty, and i slowly started believing in him again. looking back now, i realize that even when i doubted god, he never left me. even when i walked away, he stayed. even when i questioned his presence, he was still working in ways i couldn’t see. one of the biggest lessons i learned is to never doubt god because his timing is always perfect. we may not understand what he’s doing while we’re in the middle of our struggles, but he is always working behind the scenes. sometimes all we can do is trust, pray, and be patient. and eventually, everything starts to make sense.
2026-06-13 12:40:32