astra ✨ :
This song reminds me of someone so I decided to write down the experience I've had.
I've liked this boy for more than a year now, and I guess it'll end now. You see, he's the first guy I admired this way. He is a very smart student, really driven, capable, and responsible. We're in the same curriculum but in a different class. At first, when I was getting to know him, I didn't really think of it that much. I view him the same way I look at other people—no feelings at all. But as the time went on, it felt like fate was bringing me his presence even more, especially when I casually saw him in random places. I started to be more curious about him, and I'm aware that it was weird, but I just can't help it for some reason. Then one day, I was looking for him in the crowd but failed. Later on, we walked past each other, and I was happy. It's really strange, but the feeling it gives me always makes me smile. Then soon, I learned that I actually have a crush on him. I've kept this as a secret and won't tell anyone about it. The vacation was over and the school started. I really thought that it was over, but gosh, when I saw him, I knew that it was still there. My friends noticed it too, and yeah, I've told them. Not on purpose, but every week, I'll always get a chance to see him. Then I heard some rumors of other girls liking him too, and I'm not going to lie, I don't know how I feel about it. But I guess I don't really am bothered that much because we all are people and we have feelings too. We can't force ourselves to like or unlike somebody. Then yeah, a lot of things happened, but I'll summarize it. I kind of tried to communicate with him for a few days, and then right after those, I confessed to him. I did it on New Year's Eve, though. I'm not afraid to do it (to be honest), but I was just lacking courage and don't want him to feel uncomfortable or awkward too soon. But I did it because I still want to be friends with him and also want to move forward from this. He said he appreciates it, and he did nothing but be polite and genuine about responding.
2026-04-25 07:07:14