lionheart :
Nothing of this world will suffice. Id like to share my story with you.
I was bullied from the age of 5 to 12 years old. I turned to sin in an attempt to self heal the pain inside. I held onto hatred, unforgiveness, and judgment towards those who hurt me. The opposite God wants. Was a food addict, pxrn addict, homo soxual acts with similar aged kid, sox acts with family dog, suicidal thoughts. By 13, functioning alcoholic, drug addict, nicotine addict. by 16 body dismorphia, gym addict, addrenaline addict. Was filled with rage and frustration in a never ending cycle. Committed hit and run, driving intoxicated, beer runs, vandalism, street racing, running from law enforcement, plus more. At 18, I lost my virginity to a girl I learned was under 18 the following day. Was a sox addict after. On occassions I committed sox acts with strippers in clubs. At 23 I became a deputy sheriff. By 25, undiagnosable digestive disorder, cancer HPV high likelihood amputation (whole other stories how God healed me), addict of tattoos, guns, cars, trucks, boats, motorcyles, list goes on. By 35, 3 shoulder surgeries, appendix removed, herniated disc's in spine, early medical retirement from sheriffs department. At 39, I gambled my last 60k on a risky business venture. At 40 and on deaths door, I cried out to God. Jesus Christ came and saved my life (whole other story how). Prior to this I believed all faiths were possible. I went to rehab for drugs and alcohol (part of other story). Upon returning home, divorced, diagnosed adhd anxiety and depression, dad died, diagnosed vitiligo, all within 6 months. Off meds within 2 weeks diagnosis all thanks to Jesus Christ. Remained off meds despite dad dieing unexpectedly 2 weeks after stopping meds. Remained sober thanks to Jesus Christ. I felt I was alone my whole life. Jesus showed me I was never alone. That He was/is always with me. This is only the condensed version. A whole lot more happened. Sober 01-18-23. Celibate 4 1/2 years including self pleasing. Jesus Christ is the same yesterday today and forever. Hebrews 13:8. Jesus Christ meant it when He said, "come to me all who are weary and burdened and ill give you rest". Matthew 11:28.
2026-05-12 02:47:11