Cecil :
Lance, I loved you more than I ever thought I could love someone, and that’s why everything that happened hurt me this deeply. I gave you my time, my patience, and all the love I had, but even then I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was never really the one you fully chose. You never had to say it, because I felt it in the way things were, like a part of you was still holding on to Andie, still waiting for her, even while you were with me. And that feeling slowly broke me, because no matter how hard I tried, I felt like I was always second to someone else. I stayed because I loved you, I really did, and I kept hoping that one day you would look at me and choose me completely, without hesitation, without looking back.
I’m sorry for choosing Brylle, I truly am, but I was hurting so much at that point that I didn’t know what else to do. I just wanted to feel like I mattered to someone, like I was enough, because with you I started to feel like I wasn’t. But the truth is, even after everything, even now, I still love you more than anyone, and that’s the hardest part to admit. I regret letting you go because you meant so much to me, but I also know I reached my limit. I couldn’t keep holding on to someone who made me feel like I was never fully theirs. And now that you’re with Andie, it only confirms what I felt all along, that maybe you were waiting for her the whole time. That’s what hurts the most, knowing that while I was loving you fully, your heart was somewhere else.
2026-05-06 09:05:43