@the._obito: i couldn't tell them they're wrong, i couldn't stand up for myself when i could literally feel it grow heavy in my chest, yet somehow for some reason my body decides to smile and act like it was nothing so that they wouldn't feel bad because even in that moment im not looking out for myself or my own self-interest im thinking about them not feeling terrible or embarassed, im stuck in this cycle of putting others before me. i freeze before i could start arguing because Ijust can't and itjust doesn't come out. my nervous system decides to shut itself because it's conditioned to not react in a fight but to get numb and guard up #bojackhorseman #bojackhorsemanedit #radiohead #viral #edit