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Everytime she thinks that i still love or i still contact my ex, i want to reassure her that i dont, i dont even have my ex's contacts, i already blocked her in fb and tiktok, i dont really knoe if she has ig tho, but everytime i try to reassure her, i try to make long paragraphs for her, but everytime im about to send it, i always think that im annoying her too much na, everytime she's cold too me, i just think that she is tired, she thinks i dont see her change in energy, but actually, i want to tell her everytime that she is acting cold, but im afraid that she will get mad at me and say that she is just tired, i am afraid that one day she will give up on us, nakita ng dad nya yung mga convo namin, sabi nya ang sweet sweet daw namin sa isat isa kaya sabi ng dad nya na friends lang muna daw kami.
Pero yung mga iba nyang kapatid is pinayagan din naman na magkajowa, pero hindi in this age when we are still young, akala nya na iiwan kona sya nung sinabi nya yun sakin, but no, i am willing to wait until pede na sya mag ka boyfriend, i understand naman na natatakot lang parents nya na baka pabayaan na nya yung studies nya, i understand that, and i will wait until she is ready, i wont leave her, even tho she thinks im silently giving up on her, but no. I am scared to lose her, she is the girl that i want to be by my side everytime, in everything i do, im willing to do anything just to keep her, i really dont want to lose her. But i really feel like im losing her☹️
2026-04-25 01:50:41