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I don't know why, even when I try keeping myself busy and busier, you're still always on my mind. there's a part of me that keeps going back to you, no matter how hard I try.
I tried, i really did. I tried distracting myself, talking to other people, entertaining the idea that maybe someone else could make it easier. But every time i tried, i stopped myself. Not because i didn't have options, but because i knew the truth. No matter who i talked, no matter how kind or interesting they were, they were never you. And forcing myself to move on only made me realize how replaceable conversation are, but how irreplaceable you are. So instead of pretending im okay, i chose to be alone, i chose silence, i chose to sit with the pain instead of running from it. Not because i enjoy hurting, but because my heart refuses to lie. I isolate myself not to punish anyone, but because i don't want to offer half—love to someone when my whole heart still belongs to you.
It's hard to swallow the bitter taste of knowing that you will never yearn for me the way I yearn for you Andrei.
2026-04-27 03:58:45