tryingto :
She liked me first for months. Oblivious me didnt realise. Her friend told me. Started paying attention to her and developed feelings. Started to seriously talk and get to know her october 2025 - january 2026. Was convinced i wasnt going to pursue anything because i wanted to focus on school. Said YOLO and asked her on a date. Went well, and we connected so well. Inside jokes, deep conversations and not a single awkward moment. We went on many more dates, played in the rain, baked together, almost didnt separate in school. We went bowling January 31st and i bought her flowers and asked her to me mine. She said yes and i felt euphoric. Spent valentines together and kissed her. Had the most pure relationship ever and saw each other every day in school and every weekend we could. 6 months of knowing her and 2 months of dating her later, she broke up with me on a tuesday for no apparent reason. 4 days before she was hugging and kissing me asking when i was free to hang out. She told me she saw me as a friend, hit me with all the usual bs “its not you its me” etc etc in one message. Her friend told me she didnt mean it when she said she loved me, she only said it because i did. Its been 7 weeks and i dont miss her, i just miss feeling loved, feeling wanted and having a reason to dress up nice and impress someone. This was my first relationship, and looking back it isnt exactly what i want. I got too attached, changed for her wnd became more insecure slowly. but at the time i was so happy. Those months were the happiest of my life, and now i just feel empty, remembering the countless memories i had and looking back on a life i saw as perfect in comparison to now.
2026-05-23 00:12:25