Benits:) :
Pwede mag rant? Why can’t you treat me the way you treat my brothers? Is there something wrong with me? Or am I just not the one you want to give attention to? I’m not begging for it—I just want to be seen and loved, that’s all. I’ve been holding this in for quite some time now. I just don’t have the courage to tell you all that I’m also your son, not some kind of stranger who just lives in your house.
I want to be loved, not ignored. I may be the loudest son you have, but I am also the son who suffers the most in silence. Yes, I am an independent individual, but the need for my family’s support and love—that’s different. Most of the time, I only get attention when I achieve something in school. That kind of attention is temporary, not permanent. I’m trying my best to become the finest version of myself, hoping that someday I can make you proud. But that’s how life works. Even if you try your best to be seen, if you’re not the priority, you will always be pushed aside. There were so many nights when I questioned my worth because of the way I was treated. I kept asking myself what I lacked and why it seemed so easy for others to receive the love and attention I had been silently asking for all this time.
I know I don’t always show my feelings properly. Sometimes I act strong, careless, or even loud, but behind all of that is a person who only wants to feel important in his own family. A simple “How are you?” or “We’re proud of you” would mean more to me than you could ever imagine. I never wanted material things or constant praise. I just wanted to feel that my presence matters—that I matter. Because growing up feeling unnoticed slowly breaks a person in ways nobody can see. I’m tired of pretending that everything is okay when deep inside, I feel unwanted. I smile, laugh, and continue doing my responsibilities, but there’s always this emptiness that follows me every day.
2026-05-15 13:34:59