𝓜𝓪𝓻𝓲𝓪𝓱 | 𝙼𝙹 🍎 :
this song means you thought you’d heal and be better by finding someone new, you’re trying to forget that one person because you were parched, famished, starving, craving, hankering and yearning for their love.. but also knowing you can’t go back because It’s draining you alive just by waiting so you tried to leave the past behind.. but deep down.. your heart is still under their spell, it still beats only for them. you’re so captivated and consumed by your love for them, that you’re terrified they might get hurt even though they don’t care anymore. deep down you know you still care, because they were your greatest love. there’s just this unexplainable energy and bond that still connects you. you care so much about their feelings, afraid that they might get hurt, and you’re still haunted by their presence. because deep in your heart you truly feel like you’re still together. that’s why touching someone else feels so wrong, like you are being unfaithful, like you’re literally cheating on them. yet you can’t demand time anymore. because time is like a river, it has already flowed past you, and you can NEVER go back to touch the same water again. what’s gone IS gone, and you can’t bring it back. you’ll NEVER go back to what’s been gone anymore. everything is EPHEMERAL. everything happens beautifully ‘til it lasts. ‘til the alarm goes off and you’re back to consciousness.
2026-05-09 00:26:21