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i’m here— crying like an idiot, but it's my fault after all; i left him, i was the one who left him, not because i don’t love him anymore, i still do, until now, i love him so much, not loved, but LOVE. the time when i left him, it's because i want him to focus on his dreams while i’m not being a distraction, i want him to concentrate what he really wants; that time when we’re still together, he barely have time for me, because he’s busy on trainings, i completely understand him, i know he’s tired, so i don’t want him to think about me anymore, i don’t want to be added on his problems— but he did try to make time for me, to show his love for me, telling me not to give up on him, coming to see me even he’s exhausted from his practice. still, i left him, because i want him to achieve his dreams and forget about me, which is i don’t want him to do, i left him and lied about my reasons, because i know if i tell him the main reason, he’s not going to let me leave him. but i’m happy that he did respect my decision, and after that we went to our separate ways. but i hope he will keep in mind that i will be always cheering him from afar and always proud of him. i’ll always be his #1 fun, #1.5 because his mom is his #1 fan :pp
2026-04-27 13:24:39