Ivvy 🩷💯 :
the whole week I've felt this heavy pressure jn my heart, and suddenly everyone is getting closer and my place is starting to feel unnoticeable. People only talk to me when I text first, I'm always going to be the second chosen, never the first. And almost everyone thinks I'm full of joy with no bad days, which I can't blame them because I always hide the bad days. But then again, I AM a human too, I can feel sad too. I need the same level of comfort you guys get from me, but you guys are too busy with venting ur own problems to each other that mine gets thrown out just to deal with you all. I always have to stay happy otherwise no one would be happy, YES, I am happy sometimes. But, it gets to the point where I actually want to pour my tears out and want to be comforted, and yet I basically hide anything that points to negativity and vulnerability because I dislike the feeling of not being in control of the situation, that I juts cry alone with no one there for me, just the pillows and the blankets. This wasn't supposed to be a vent but I got carried away, so sorry.
2026-07-16 08:28:47