@iceman_hof: Your identity has never been gone. Only it should not be overshadowed by what I call the blob… … this shadow brought on by conformity, rules and distractions. The blob that takes over and so it takes your energy. But it doesn't give you growth. It's like parasites on you. Go back to the cold. Go back and retrieve that energy that goes wastefully into this blob, into this zombie kind of state, where you don't feel your uniqueness. Whomever came up with this system, how it crept in - I don't care. I care about you. Your beautiful soul. Eternal. In the cold you will find your way back. With love. -Wim