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mahal kita to the point that sometimes i choose to ignore the pain even when it’s already hurting me deeply, bc losing u feels heavier than anything i’m going through. ik u don’t want me to drain myself for u, ik you’ve said that before, but i can’t help it bc ts is how much ily. when u love someone ts deeply, u tend to give more than u should, even when it starts to hurt, even when it slowly takes pieces of u away. i’m willing to sacrifice everything for u, even if it hurts, even if it becomes too much, even if there are days when i feel like i’m slowly losing parts of myself, as long as you’re happy and u feel that someone is still choosing to stay with u no matter what. i don’t want to be a burden to u, that’s why most of the time i choose to keep everything to myself even when what i’m feeling is already too heavy. i’m scared that if i open up too much, it might push u away or turn into another misunderstanding, and i don’t want that. so i stay quiet, not bc i don’t feel anything, but bc i’m trying to protect what we have. ilysm, and with u, i felt things i never thought i would ever feel in my life, a kind of love that was so pure, so deep, and so real that it changed me completely. but at the same time, you’re also the person who made me feel a kind of pain i never imagined i would go through, and that kind of pain hits differently bc it came from the same person who once made me feel so safe and loved. i js hope that when you’re having a hard time, u would still look at me the way u used to, the way u used to see me before, like i still matter, like i’m still someone u choose even when things aren’t easy. i’m not asking for everything to go back to how it was before, i js want to feel ur love again, even in the smallest ways, even js a little, even if it’s not the same as before, js enough to remind me that what we have is still real. and please don’t ever think that i stayed bc i had no choice, bc that’s not true. i’m staying bc i’m sure abt u. never ko naman naisipan na bumitaw e. It's js hard to believe na all that time na pag sasama natin, may iba kana palang minamahal, ginawa ko naman lahat e, nag stay ako kahit nahahalata na kita dahil mahal kita.
2026-05-18 00:15:57