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i wonder if you still think of me sometimes… like randomly , the way i still think of you. it’s been 8 months this month and i don’t even know if i ever cross your mind anymore or if i’m just something you’ve already moved on from like it was nothing. i try to act like i’m fine and like it doesn’t affect me anymore , but some days it still hits just as hard. i still go over everything in my head , all the memories , all the little things , trying to understand where it all went wrong. i don’t think i’ll ever fully understand why you had to hurt me the way you did or why you did that when you knew how much i cared about you. that’s the part that stays with me the most… not even just losing you , but how you chose to hurt me , sometimes i wonder if any part of you misses me too , or if i’m the only one still holding onto something that’s already gone. like do you ever hear a song or see something that reminds you of me? or am i just a chapter you’ve already closed without a second thought. it’s crazy how someone can go from being such a big part of your life to feeling like a stranger. i’ve tried so hard to let go , to move forward , to stop thinking about the “what ifs” and the “whys “ , but they still come back. i still think about how things could’ve been different , how maybe if something changed we’d still be okay. but at the same time, i know i didn’t deserve to be hurt like that and i hate that a small part of me still wonders if you’ll ever come back… even though deep down i know things wouldn’t be the same and maybe they shouldn’t be. i just wish i had answers. i wish i knew if i ever meant as much to you as you did to me, or if it was always just me feeling everything more. i don’t even know why i’m still holding onto this after all this time… maybe it’s because what we had felt real to me. or maybe it’s because i never really got closure. but yeah… i just wonder if you ever think of me , even for a second.
2026-05-04 11:25:40