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wh4theduck1e
mjsdr4ts :
I tried. I really did. I tried distracting myself, talking to other people, entertaining the idea that maybe someone else could make it easier. but every time I tried, I stopped myself. Not because I didn’t have options, but because I knew the truth. No matter who sat in front of me, no matter how kind or interesting they were, they were never you. Forcing myself to move on only made me realize how replaceable conversations are, but how irreplaceable you are. So instead of pretending I'm okay, I chose to be alone. I chose silence. I chose to sit with the pain instead of running from it. Not because I enjoy hurting, but because my heart refuses to lie. I isolate myself not to punish anyone, but because I don’t want to offer half-love to someone when my whole heart still belongs to you. I'm not waiting loudly. I’m not chasing. I'm not asking you to come back. I'm just here, quietly holding space for you, even if you never notice. Even if the timing is wrong. Even if the ending is already written. Because loving you taught me this kind of patience, the kind that doesn’t beg, doesn’t rush, and doesn’t replace. Maybe one day, our paths cross again when we’re both ready. maybe they won’t. Until then, I'll stay honest with myself. I won’t pretend you were easy to forget. I won’t pretend someone else could take your place. I'll wait in the only way I know how—silently, sincerely, and with a heart that never learned how to choose anyone else.
2026-05-08 06:42:51
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ioyfz
k :
oh, kanino na?
2026-05-09 07:08:11
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emmanlolokoswan
ginaa :
I miss the old you.
2026-06-13 04:04:00
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tmblxhzak
ig: denzylenztmbl_ :
Ang unfair mo kasi haha, ikaw yung pumasok sa buhay kong nanahimik but now ako ung kawawa hanggang dulo. I wish we could go back to the time we were talking about exes, pero natalo nako for the first time in life. Pinaramdam mo lahat sakin yon tapos bigla ka nalang mag babago? Wala rin naman na akong magagawa kasi nag balikan na kayo ng greatest love mo eh:( I can't accept it but im happy for yall both.— And please if you two didnt ever work out. Im open, please comeback to me. Im willing to treat you better than before and your past lovers. Im just scared makita kang saktan nya ulit eh, if ever ha? You'll always in my mind and heart, Iloveu.
2026-06-05 17:16:35
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_jy_mr_
️jay_emm :
it just feels unfair, because you were the one who came into my life first. hindi naman ako yung lumapit sayo, hindi naman kita hinanap. ikaw yung unang nagparamdam na may something, na may meaning lahat ng ginagawa natin. you were the one who made everything feel real, like it wasn’t just something temporary. I wasn’t even looking for you, but somehow, you became part of my everyday. little by little, nasanay ako sa’yo—sa presence mo, sa paraan ng pakikipag-usap mo, sa paraan ng pagtrato mo sa akin. you made me feel like I mattered, like I was someone you genuinely wanted, someone worth choosing. but now I realize… maybe you just loved the idea of loving me. maybe you liked how I cared, how I stayed, how I understood you. but when it came to actually choosing me, to standing by what we had, you couldn’t do it. you couldn’t be certain, and you couldn’t be consistent. hindi ako tanga para hindi mapansin yan. I see everything, I feel everything. napapansin ko yung maliliit na pagbabago—yung paglayo mo, yung pagiging inconsistent mo, yung mga pagkakataon na parang wala ka na. hindi ako bulag para hindi makita kung sino ang mas nag-eeffort, kung sino ang mas may pakialam, at kung sino ang mas natatakot na mawala ang isa’t isa. hindi ako tanga para hindi mapansin na china-chat mo lang ako kapag gusto mo—kapag okay ka, kapag masaya ka, kapag convenient para sayo. but have you ever thought na kaya kitang intindihin kahit anong pinagdadaanan mo? even in your lowest, kaya kong iparamdam sayo na hindi ka nag-iisa. I was willing to stay, not just in your good days, but even in your worst ones. alam ko kung kailan nagbabago ang trato mo. ramdam ko kung kailan ka hindi na sigurado. and even without you saying anything, naiintindihan ko kung ano na yung nangyayari sa atin. I’m not stupid—I just chose to stay, even when I already knew the truth.and the truth is, kahit nakikita ko na lahat, I still stayed. I stayed even when things started to feel one-sided.
2026-05-09 12:10:42
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ailaaaria
lalalostyou :
my dearest glenciel/ysel, i don’t really know how to put this into the right words, but i’ll try to be honest without overthinking it. i love you. i really did, and in a lot of ways, i still do. i wanted us to work so badly that i kept holding on even when things started feeling heavy and confusing. i kept imagining that if we just tried a little harder, or waited a little longer, we’d somehow find our way back to how things used to feel. but i think deep down, i’ve started to accept that it just can’t be the same anymore. not because the love wasn’t real, but because we’ve both changed, and loving each other isn’t enough to fix everything that’s happened between us. it hurts to admit that, because i truly wanted us to make it. i wanted you in my future in a way that felt certain. but i think i’ve been fighting something that’s already letting go on its own. i’ll always care about you. and i’ll always be grateful for you. but i think this is me finally accepting that we have to stop trying to force something that’s hurting us both. please take care of yourself. i hope you don’t forget that i loved you in a very real way, even if it didn’t last the way we wanted it to. I'm happy for you and to ur new girl, though masakit.
2026-05-09 13:44:01
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miko_200w
MIKE? :
whos scared to mention their real love?
2026-05-08 05:30:37
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leanxyvl
Lea :
I still long for you after all these years, my Drei. No one can really compare to you no matter how much they show me love and affection kasi they're not you. I regret hurting you deeply and it is not my position to miss and long for you this bad but my heart always find ways to come crawling back to you. It's been a year since you left me but since then, my heart hasn't been the same after you left me. After all, it was still my fault that I hurted you so much and wasted that 2nd chance with you which I deeply regret. I hope you're happy right now and even it means seeing you again in my dream school because you're studying there and also the same building that I'm enrolling for. If we crossed paths, you can just ignore me but my heart and eyes will still always look for you in crowded places and events. If I get to have one more chance with you, I will never ever waste it but I don't think you're gonna believe it since I hurt you once already. I miss you so much more than everything and I'm willing to do everything to make you believe that I will not hurt you ever again. ☹️I want to move on from you but it seems that my heart doesn't have the courage to love someone else again because nandun ka eh hahaha ano ba magagawa ko kung ikaw pa rin nasa puso ko and the one that I still long for and love so much. Maybe in another life, other me would've had prevented to hurt you in the first place and made you cry because of what I did. I hope you know that I deeply regret it so much and wished I could turn back time to fix myself around you. I was really awful back then and I shouldn't have did that to you. I told myself to move on and move forward but I really couldn't when I always think of our future together—that one day, we'll move in, have 2-3 cats instead of children and run away from our strict and religious parents together. You don't know how badly I want to reach out to talk to you, beg for forgiveness and another chance even though I don't deserve it, ease the heaviness and pain in my heart which is full of guilt of what I did even though I really know that ai don't deserve to feel this way pero I can't stop myself knowing that I've hurted the once loml. :(
2026-05-08 12:48:39
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kvstusdzb
️ :
"Can we go back to the days when we were both scared to lose each other?"
2026-05-29 17:39:35
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syynnxxzz
￴ :
gawa din ako essay ko sige...
2026-05-25 01:10:13
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saeriwish
saeriqx :
ww tried so many times, but it's failed
2026-05-31 04:35:59
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hikeeeeeennn
kennnn :
Dumaan ka sa fyp ko oh HAHAHAH kilala mo ko?
2026-05-09 12:53:54
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joez3phh
Joezeph.msyk :
too risky
2026-05-09 05:11:57
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0death_dealer0
🐉Reza jean🐉 :
pano ba gawin ng ganyan🤣
2026-05-18 15:32:14
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patrick4star1
Patrick4star :
may bago nasya nong reach out ako😢
2026-05-21 15:19:52
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worstearl
worstEarl :
pwede paba bumalik sa dating tayu? Imissusomuch madambby:< balik tayu sa dating takot tayong mawla sa isa’t isa.
2026-05-20 22:44:14
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vhintzyprime
Carl capalar. :
can we go back to the days when we were both scared to lose each other?"
2026-05-07 09:35:24
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gail41487
gail??? :
ngayon Kasi ako nalang Yung takot na mag hiwalay tayu
2026-05-22 08:59:50
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jerickjhonluga
rickk :
tagos hanggang likod.
2026-05-11 00:55:04
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litomacalma
ʏᴏʀᴜɪᴄʜɪ✓ :
Can we go back to the days when we were both scared to lose each other?
2026-05-08 02:18:40
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ninaa771600
nina :
This except in February - may
2026-05-08 22:05:43
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c2pitowalosiyamsampo
rchmnd :
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2026-05-10 01:41:19
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youzenofficial2
🖤kyuzen🖤 :
can we go back to the days when we were both scared to lose each other maybe
2026-05-15 05:27:53
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melyxdie._
✝️ :
I tried forgetting you, I truly did. I tried talking to other people, but i still can’t stop thinking about you. A lot of boys also tried entertaining me but they never succeed, i still think about you, like how’s your life, how’s your family, and especially how’s your relationship with God. You’re the person who i thought I would be with, we only lasted 2years and a half but for me it felt like an eternity, you forgot me so quickly na para bang wala lang ang 2 years. I was there for you when you needed a shoulder to cry on, ganon ka din sakin. What happened to us🥹
2026-05-08 14:43:13
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