@ameliasahm03: being a better mom didn't start when I bought the right swaddle or found the perfect bassinet. it started when I finally stopped white knuckling everything and pretending I was absolutely fine when I was very much NOT fine lol like nobody tells you that the thing that actually makes you better at this job is admitting how hard it is?? I spent so many weeks thinking if I just tried harder, slept less, googled more, figured out the right schedule... I would suddenly feel like I had it together. spoiler: I did not have it together. the 3am thing especially. I genuinely thought I was the only person alive awake at that hour losing my mind. my husband was asleep, my friends with older kids were asleep, my mom was asleep. and I'm just sitting there in the dark with a baby who will not latch and I am SPIRALING. that loneliness is a different kind of lonely I cannot explain it and then I found beacon and I'm not even exaggerating when I say seeing that other moms were awake at that exact same moment made me exhale for the first time in weeks. like oh. I'm not broken. this is just what this is. we're all in it together even when it feels like ur completely alone also the crying in front of your baby one. I know it sounds counterintuitive but I had someone tell me that babies don't need a perfect mom and something in me just released. I was holding SO much tension trying to seem okay all the time and it wasn't making me better it was making me worse anyway. if ur reading this at a weird hour with a baby who won't sleep just know ur not alone and ur doing so much better than u think ur doing 🤍 save this one bc u might need it on a hard night #mom #MomsofTikTok #momlife #momtok #baby

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