Asmairah 🎀 :
how do i unlove someone i once dreamed of marrying?, how do i let go of the person i once imagined spending forever with? the one i used to pray for, plan a future with, and see in every version of my tomorrow. it’s hard, because loving you was never just about the present, it was about every dream i built around us, i pictured a life with you in the smallest and biggest ways. i imagined birthdays, quiet nights, silly arguments, growing old together. i held onto those dreams like they were real, like they were already ours, and now i’m left trying to unlove not just you, but the future i thought we would have, that’s the hardest part. losing you is one thing, but losing the life i imagined with you feels like grieving something that never even got the chance to exist.
i don’t know how to stop loving someone who once felt like home. i don’t know how to teach my heart to forget the person it chose so deeply, but maybe unloving you doesn’t happen all at once. maybe it happens slowly, in the quiet moments when i choose to keep going even without you. maybe one day, your name will no longer ache the way it does now.
for now, all i know is, i loved you enough to imagine forever, and now i have to learn how to live with forever no longer including you.
2026-05-11 18:26:27