stoned :
i want her, yet im such a bad person, i cant be a shoulder to cling to, i dont think im in love but more likely to be obsessed which is the thing that im afraid the most. i want her, to be mine but sometime i look at her and i realize im not in her league, i just got lucky talking to her but i never expressed this because i know it would ruin our friendship. i want her, but even when its the time i face her, i froze but instead of cold, im feeling this sensation to explode, many questions i want to ask but i dont want to be deemed annoying. i want her, and only her.
im a selfish obsessed prick. im lost, im so lost. i am nothing. am i insecure? i dont know. am i paranoid? i dont know. i have no clue, because all these years ive loved only one.
to be liked by her, is what heaven feels like. enduring what's coming was worth it since you were there. you are everything, and must not be accompanied by nothing. if you are going once more, so be it.
2026-05-13 16:46:19