@ameliasahm03: ok so this one is hard to write but i think about all the moms who are going thru this rn and just think theyre "bad at this" and that makes me want to scream 😭 postpartum depression doesn't always look like what they show you on tv. it doesnt always look like crying in the bathtub. sometimes it looks like being fine at the grocery store and then sitting in your car for 20 mins before you can go inside. sometimes it looks like laughing at dinner and then lying awake at 2am feeling like ur disappearing. i had SO many of these signs and i genuinely thought i was just not cut out for motherhood. like maybe other women were just built different and i was the one who slipped through the cracks lol 😶🌫️ nobody pulled me aside and said hey. this has a name. this is real. this is not ur fault. i had to figure that out way too late and honestly im still a lil mad about it the one that got me the MOST was feeling alone even when my husband was literally right there. like he was in the same bed and i felt like i was on a different planet. that kind of lonely is so hard to explain to someone who hasnt felt it also the not sleeping when the baby sleeps thing?? everyone always says "sleep when baby sleeps!!" as if my brain wasnt running a full anxiety marathon the second i closed my eyes 😭 that tip was not made for postpartum moms with anxiety. it was not i also wanna say if you are up at weird hours feeling like this pleeeease look into Beacon. it shows you other moms who are awake at that same exact moment going thru the same stuff and honestly the first time i opened it at 3am and saw i wasnt the only one awake and struggling i literally cried. in a good way. cause i didnt feel invisible anymore if any of these signs sound familiar please please please tell ur doctor or ur partner or literally anyone. u are not broken. u are not a bad mom. this is so common and so real and u deserve support not just survival mode 🤍 #mom #MomsofTikTok #momlife #momtok #baby
