Chicofuego604 :
yes, only 1 time. I almost married said person. Unfortunately, I found out literally right when I was gonna get a ring that they had been cheating on me. I got to witness said act. As well, the person also comitted theft and battery against me. The trail went back months , with a friend of mine...it took years to dig myself out of the hole that created in my soul, and fix the mess that it put my life into. Clinical therapy and recovery from other self harming coping mechanisms,was a long battle and for a time, I was a shell of a man..I don't wish that level of emotional pain on anyone. Now, I don't date for personal / faith driven reasons and ...that word, faith...I mean don't have a lot of faith in the opposite gender anymore, and I see it socially. People are fractured in society and everyone has ridiculous ego, expections, women hating men, men hating women, people fooling around, etc its a lot...however, in the last few years I have had hope one day, something may change. I'm trying to be more positive every day, small actions of kindness to strangers, hoping to see the good in humanity. I think maybe soulmates , or the idea of someone being genuinely honest with me could happen, but I don't waste my finite time dating around trying to manifest it into existence. Marriage should be about love and commitment, but people treat dating like a contract based on a list of things...the love and connection left the conversation a long time ago and as much as I try to have hope, I'm smart enough to know most people are lost.
2026-05-16 18:00:52