Cory :
The one relationship I didn’t chase, and never saw coming. The one where for the first time, I genuinely fell in love with their soul and personality before physical attraction ever played a part. We were friends for over a year before it happened suddenly. The one relationship where I have NEVER been treated with such love, kindness, consideration, honesty, loyalty, and respect. I wasn’t prepared for that kind of love. I lost her recently, and I have no one to blame but myself, and it tears me apart every second of every day and night. Everywhere I go I see memories of when we were there together. She lived with me for a while too so even being home is miserable because all of her things and decorations that had been placed or scattered over time are all gone. There’s no sign of her left except for the gifts she had bought me over time. First girl to ever get me anything. The beautiful card she spent a lot of time making for me on my most recent birthday, and a little canvas magnet on the fridge she painted for me during the time I was starting to catch feelings, and strands of her hair still scattered here or there, or in my car, or stuck to the shower wall. This is the most devastating loss I’ve ever experienced in my life, and I don’t know what to do. I’d give anything for 1 more chance, but I know that’s probably never going to happen. I’m just surviving each day at this point. Crying fits throughout each day. Fuck I miss her….
2026-05-21 18:46:14