@perishdiary: What kind of test, you may ask. It’s a test Allah sent us back at the end of 2025. In December, my dad had surgery on his cervical spine, and after the surgery, he lost feeling in his arms and legs. He became completely paralyzed. We went through some of the hardest days of our lives. Alhamdulillah, my dad is slowly recovering now. There is progress, but it’s very small. And only Allah and my family truly know what we’ve been going through all this time. This morning my sister called me and said, “I don’t even know what to do anymore.” My dad has started losing hope and faith that he will ever walk again. He has been in a rehabilitation center for almost two months now. There is progress, alhamdulillah, but it’s very slow, and since this is our first time facing something like this, we don’t even know if that’s good or not. My dad is starting to give up. My sister, terrified, asked me, “Maybe we should take him to another country for treatment, maybe Russia or Turkey?” She’s asking me to look into options because she feels like there’s no one she can even turn to for advice anymore. After that phone call, the tears just wouldn’t stop. I keep telling myself, “But we are making dua… we are asking Allah…” Yet somehow our duas still feel unanswered. And I’m scared of falling back into those dark thoughts again. During the winter, I cried constantly, overthought everything, carried all this pain inside of me, and in the end, I became very sick myself. Now I’m scared of losing myself again. I have so many fears inside me that I’m even afraid to say out loud.

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Wednesday 20 May 2026 18:58:18 GMT