@._gyuu: #txt #life #beomgyu #txtbeomgyu school is gonna be hard and honestly im scared as hell (i think im not gonna have friends there but its fine) i keep acting like its fine but its really not. every time i think about school starting again i just get stressed. everyone else looks like they know what they’re doing and then theres me wondering if im even smart enough to keep up. i hate feeling like im always behind. i hate comparing myself to other people. i hate how one bad grade or one mistake can make me feel like im failing at everything. and the worst part is i dont really tell people how much it actually affects me. i just joke about it or laugh it off because i dont wanna be annoying. iwannaendit but i cant, i still have people i care about. jana, my friends, the people who make my days a little less terrible without even knowing it. so i guess im still here. scared, tired, overthinking everything, but still trying. maybe thats enough for now. #vent
