itz_xy<3🥝 :
To my avoidant baby,
I won’t chase this time not because I don’t care anymore, but because I’m starting to realize that love shouldn’t feel like I always have to be the one holding on. I see you, even in your silence how you pull away when things get overwhelming and choose distance over facing things. I tried to meet you where you are without losing myself, but loving you quietly has been the loudest pain. I kept telling myself, “intindihin mo siya, ganito lang talaga siya,, may pinagdadaanan lang siya” while slowly, I was the one getting drained. I stayed patient and gentle, even when I felt ignored, even when it felt like I was the only one holding on. Maybe you’ll never fully realize how much I chose you, even when it would’ve been easier to walk away. I don’t hate or blame you, but I’m finally accepting I can’t be the only one fighting for something that’s supposed to be ours. If you ever read this, I hope you understand I didn’t leave because I stopped loving you. I stepped back because I needed to choose myself too. And if one day you learn how to stay, I hope you remember someone once loved you this softly, patiently, and genuinely. But for now, I’m letting go of the version of you that only shows up when it’s convenient. Still soft just not losing myself anymore.
2026-05-31 01:55:30