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the passion, the mutual desire, the bond, the environment everything was euphoric.. a vibe you cant create with anyone else even if you tried,it’s like once I got a taste and lost it i was losing my mind trying to piece together what i couldn’t put back together, i’m yearning.. not just physically. mentally and emotionally i needed the love from them in any way i could get it, its hard to un love someone whom you created a deep soul-tie with, sleeping skin to skin, falling for each other over, and over, and over again.. and looking back on old memories i feel myself shutter, i feel the nerves, i feel like a bottle about to burst, but i hold back because i’m terrified you’ll forever leave and go, it’s a heavy weigh on the heart to know you need to search for certainty in others before choosing me completely. and maybe that’s what hurts the most, knowing i could give you every vulnerable piece of me and still not be enough to quiet the uncertainty in your mind. i replay our memories in my head over and over again even though it breaks me even more each and every time, because the love we had wasn’t ordinary, it was the kind of love that settled into my bones, the kind that changed my mindset, the kind of love you hope and pray that never goes away, till one day your person walks the other way.
2026-05-26 01:04:17