its a shame that i am not currently as skilled with the piano as i wish to be despite learning piano at a very young age. this is sebastian but i suppose one cannot really tell. #sebastianmichaelis#blackbutler#oilpainting#art#piano i have a feeling that this post will not reach many eyes because it is not as impressive as i’d hoped it to be. so under this, i will talk a little about myself for those who follow me,, i believe it is time i give them a perspective of me, but note that this is not all that i am—i DO have a personality. it isn’t deep or sentimental and is merely some context because truly it has been a little over a year now that i created this account and started posting my art. i did not do it for the sake of posting, to have a fanbase, or to get a chance to earn money through commissions. i was determined to prove to those around me that this particular hobby of mine is not as useless as they believe. i was also curious to see where this path would take me. for a while in my life, the art i created received negative attention from people i thought should be the ones supporting it. i never truly cared about that—i was too prideful to care—as long as it was something i could do without any external forces controlling it. if i was not able to dictate anything else about myself (or what i did), to me this was sufficient. i would then put every last drop of effort into the crafts to make up for everything i could never do. i grew passionate and ambitious, and it really did make up my identity, though i developed some flaws due to it also. eventually the freedom i had in my hands seemed to be restricted. works of my art, some torn in pieces and most rejected, i began to feel extremely useless. yes, my ego took a huge hit and you may be asking “why, pray tell, do you feel like that over something so silly?”. it does sound silly, yet i believe it is my talent and desire that makes me differ from the average fool. it was all i had and all i could do, so— who was i if i no longer had control over what i created? after overcoming some anger and fear, i decided that i was going to seek a place where my art would reach others. i figured that i’d keep this to myself (for now), and try my luck with putting it out to the media. i wondered if my “meaningless” and “time-waste” sketches would appeal to anybody. and to my ABSOLUTE surprise, it did… and maybe now it cannot be defined as trivial. the attention you all show was alien to me and i am grateful for where i stand and for the comments i receive. my real goals are still very very far from being accomplished however i am not worried since i still have time. the process is enjoyable itself and seeing it happen is enough for me at this moment. i thank everyone. in the past year, my grudges vanished, and i remain indifferent to unnecessary outside criticism ever since my focus is the audience here only. ah, i feel as content as ever. - @honeyblayde